RIP

When I started these new paintings, I tentatively named them Cluster Heartbreak. I was processing my own broken heart, trying to work through the pain of a personal romantic relationship ending. As I came out the other side, I decided to keep the title because heartbreak is not just about me. My heart is broken by what my children have had to endure. My heart is broken by seeing the pain all around me. It is not a singular process. It is an all enveloping emotion applicable to everything surrounding all our lives. It exists in scenes from the street corner as I aspire to develop the empathetic side to my children’s brains. Heartbreak is understanding the pain beyond my front door. The lesson is that we all have pain to work through and if I can help others by sharing mine, then I’ve become a better person for it. I’m thankful for having my heart broken. I’ll take these lessons and grow into a better person and a stronger advocate for my children and others going through worse. I present this work as an affirmation of lifting myself up and not as a reminder of how far down I’ve fallen.

ClusterHearbreak1,2016,12x12in

Cluster Heartbreak 1, 2016, acrylic on panel, 12″ x 12″

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ClusterHearbreak2,2016,12x12in

Cluster Heartbreak 2, 2016, acrylic on panel, 12″ x 12″

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ClusterHearbreak3,2016,12x12in

Cluster Heartbreak 3, 2016, acrylic on panel, 12″ x 12″

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ClusterHearbreak4,2016,12x12in

Cluster Heartbreak 4, 2016, acrylic on panel, 12″ x 12″

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ClusterHearbreak5,2016,12x12in

Cluster Heartbreak 5, 2016, acrylic on panel, 12″ x 12″

 

I was shocked and saddened to learn that my ex-husband recently flew to Spain and disposed of some really good paintings I made while living there. They were hanging in my Valencia apartment that I rent out short-term to travelers. So here is a brief homage to a few of the pieces now somewhere in a dumpster or landfill:

Distortion2,2012,39.5x27.5in

RIP: Distortion 2, 2012, acrylic on canvas, 39 1/2″ x 27 1/2″

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Nasoki 6,2011,acrylic on canvas,27.5x39.25in,70x100cm

RIP: Nasoki 6, 2011, acrylic on canvas, 30″ x 40″

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Nasoki 5,2011,acrylic on canvas 39.25 x 39.25in, 100x100cm

RIP: Nasoki 5, 2011, acrylic on canvas, 40″ x 40″

Ending on a high note: Galleri Urbane in Dallas has scheduled me for a solo exhibition in July, 2017. I’m really excited to explore the possibilities of filling the space with my sculpture, installations, and paintings.

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This month’s music: Gallant

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